Here I am again, three years later

Here it is just a few years later.  Wow, I am really quick with this blog aren't I?  I am not sure why I did this a few years ago.  It seemed like the thing to do.  All my stay at home mom friends had a blog and I thought I was supposed to right?  Posting a few years later shows you what my life is really like.  We have had another baby since the last post, Emma, and she is over 2.

I want to have a blog with a purpose.  That is what I want most in life, to know there is a purpose.  I will hardly every write on this I am sure, but it is nice right now.  Life with four kids now almost 7 and under is really non-stop.  There rare moments of sitting down right now with my kids asleep and my husband gone and dishes done are not very often.  They are very very nice.  I would love for Rick to be home, but the peace and quiet of this moment is something I long for every night and when we finally get the kids down we relax right?  Not exactly, that is when other things start, finishing cleaning, doing some laundry, folding clothes, checking facebook and email, etc., etc. I am not complaining, this was my heart's desire.  I prayed and longed for a godly husband, four kids, and actually wanted to be a pastor's wife.  I actually got all I prayed for.  I just did not know the constant motion.  I did not know the tiredness and the way I had to fight for time to myself or for time with just Rick.  I know this is our busy season in life.  I know I will want them all little again one day.  They already are so big to me as it is.  I wrote in this blog (I actually forgot I had it until recently) three years ago.  It seems like yesterday and now I have four kids and no more babies at my house.  Why do I complain and wish they were bigger.  I need to pray for more grace to see this as a journey with God and He will sustain me, He will give me the joy.

Joy, something I only find in him.  Recently I realized I had lost some joy.  I had looked to so many things to fufill me.  I had lost my fun and I was in a whirlwind trying to find it again.  I put on old college music and danced with the girls to see if I could find it (I did find a little I thought, it was fun), I looked at old pictures, and tried to be carefree.  In my tired state I could not do it.  I could not fester up happiness or joy.  I am realizing daily, I find my joy in Christ.  Only He can give me that, make me fun again, make me happy.  My kids and husband give me so much, but they can not give me true satisfaction.

Ok, I am tired and write what I think and feel.  I will go now, hopefully it will not be over three years when I write again.  See you soon and press on friend.

Here is a current picture of my kiddos.  This is what I work so hard for and I think they are worth it.  I home  school and am with them everyday.  I have been told by many I will not regret that decision.  My tired nights
I have to just get refocused and ask for much grace.  They are true gifts from God.

Wow, we have a blog!

I have not actually told my husband I started this today. I could have been folding laundry, doing productive things I guess. I stumbled upon a friend's blog and here I am. I hope I can convince Rick this will be fun. He may even write some quite theological notes on here himself. Maybe we can create a church blog with his thoughts, you never know. For those who don't know me, here is a little about me:

I am 34, stay home with my three kids three (almost 4) and under. I live in a wonderful small town called Learned, MS. We have just over 100 people in Learned, but are close to Clinton and Jackson, MS. We are near the seminary (RTS), so we don't really feel like we are that far out. I do feel like this when I am out of milk and eggs, but we have enjoyed country life. In our neighborhood, we have roosters, chickens, goats, a baseball field, three churches (including ours), a country store, a town hall, and volunteer fire department. That is Learned. My dad said it is like the way it used to be. It is safe and simple. My husband pastors our church, Lebanon Presbyterian Church, which is next door. We love our church. We live in a one story home over 100 years old that just have enough room for us. We have Stephen that is almost 4, Ansley 2 1/2, and Sadie 5 months.

Rick just called and I told him about our new blog. I hope he will post something soon.